I know that this blog is about myself and my two crazy Pyr
boys..but I want to take a moment to talk about Chance, the other man in my life. No, not human and not a Pyr, but a Flat Coat Retriever.
Chance came into my life in March of 1997. I was very young,
just out of my mom’s house living on my own. I already had a black lab named
Hunny who passed 2.5 years later due to a brain tumor at the young age of 3. He
was then my only child. Chance sure was a bad puppy. And I mean BAD…Worst puppy
I ever had (up until Hogan) and my mother will even vouch for that…Once he got
out of his puppy phase it was almost overnight that he morphed into a whole new
dog. All of the sudden he started to listen, quit getting into things, etc. He
was always a joy but this was a whole new level. Chance traveled with me and
went almost anywhere I did within reason. He was the front porch greeter, and
loved everyone and everything (even cats). He rode well in the car and he knew
what “bye bye in the car” meant. He loved going to the vet!! He was just a well-rounded,
good ole’ boy of a dog. He loved his
“babies” aka stuffed animals, and never tore them up..sure he would shake them
vigorously from side to side, throw them up in the air only to catch them in
his mouth again, but never destroyed them. He slept with them and carried them
around the house. He loved pickles and bananas and his all time favorite was
“frenchie fries” from McDonald’s. If there was water around, he was in it.. He
lived the good life and that was for sure and he got me through some of the
darkest times of my life. If I was sick, that boy would lay in bed with me all
day long. He wouldn’t move unless I did. He stuck by me through thick and
thin..He was the bread to my butter.
In the last year Chance took me on a rollercoaster ride of
emotions and events. Several trips to the hospital thinking he was dying only
to have him playing with his babies the next morning..He was going blind and
deaf, slept all the time and suddenly would bark whenever I left the room. Doggie Dementia had started to set in. His
once jet black face was almost all white and mobility was a problem, but he
still tried to get his play time in with Hogan and Hurley and he always made
sure they knew who was boss..On February 20th, after 16 years of
being a loyal, faithful, loving companion, I let Chance go. I woke up to find
he couldn’t take three steps without falling down. Getting him outside was a
huge task and once outside he just laid down. He gave me a look I will never forget.
It said “Momma, it’s ok, it’s time to let me go”. I let my boss know, and took
the day off. I made the appointment with the vets office, and spent the day
with him. I made his paw print in clay, went and got him a McDonald’s
cheeseburger meal and gave him whatever he wanted. I laid on the floor with him all day. I
brushed him and told him I couldn’t send him up to heaven looking like a hot
mess. Once it was time to go, I had to
have help getting him in the car. I put all the windows down in the car because
even though he couldn’t stand and stick his head out of the window, I wanted
him to feel the wind and smell all the smells he could. The trip to the vet went by far too fast, why
was this? Once there, the ladies came out and got him on a stretcher and took
him inside. There we were, was this really happening? This couldn’t be..not yet
son, not yet..
Dr. Allen and her staff couldn’t have been more caring and
kind to the both of us. She explained everything to me (although I had done
this before), and told me to take as much time as possible, and I did. I let
her know when it was time. She moved quickly and quietly, all with a caring
spirit at the same time. She put me at ease by telling me how selfless I was.
She also made me feel like a great mom by saying that she’d never seen a 97 pound dog live to be
16..I knew I’d done something right. He calmly and slowly left this world in my
arms. I sat there for a while really not knowing what to do. I knew it was time
to leave him, but I just couldn’t. Again,
they told me to take as much time as I needed. When I finally got the courage
up to leave him, one of the techs said she would stay with him for a while
which meant a lot to me. Going home was hard...I knew the boys would be looking
for him. I left his collar and leash in the car. I fell apart when I got home
because he was everywhere. His toys, beds, pictures and yes, even his long
black hair..I kept waking up all night thinking he was there, and he wasn’t.
The next morning was hard…he wasn’t there to wake me up with his heavy Darth
Vader breathing and his nails weren’t clicking on the concrete and tile floors.
In the end though, I know I did the right thing, and that he has crossed the Rainbow Bridge and is running, jumping and playing pain free with Hunny, Chelsea,
Boots, Missy and all the other pets I have had that are now gone. I miss him
every single day and have his pictures plastered everywhere. He was the best
dog anyone could ever have..Meet Chance:
What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful boy. While we love ALL our pets, there are some that touch the heart in an extra special way that make them #1. It is clear you were Chance's #1 too, and he will be waiting for you at the Bridge with a twinkle in his eye and a bounce in his step, saying Mamma, did you bring some fries with you? :) And your heart will be full and happy again <3
ReplyDeleteThank you so much..I will be complete one day when I am with all my babies up in heaven!
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